Its been a while since I’ve written anything. Truthfully, I’ve been a bit down for the past few months. I’m usually the strong one…everybody’s rock, shoulder to cry on, level-headed decision maker etc. but now its me standing on the other side of the glass.
As a child, I didn’t have much. It wasn’t like I was poor or destitute, but I had parents that didn’t believe in going beyond the basics…food, shelter and necessities. There was no new fancy pair of shoes, name branded clothing or exciting family trips around the world. This is extremely hard on a child especially when you go to a nice school and find that your life pales in comparison to others. I guess I made myself an outsider…I got along with everyone but never ran in the popular circles. This helped me to stay out of the spotlight and avoided the attention of not having what ‘everyone’ else did. The one thing I did however learn was the value of money.
Fast-forward to my adult life, I swore that things would be better. I would have the best that I could afford, travel all over the world and educate myself on things usually reserved for the rich (art, opera, ballet, fine dining and others). I work hard and save as best as I can. I’m financially sensible, and an expert budget/bargain hunter. This has allowed me to travel to places I once thought I’d read about, eat at restaurants that seemed beyond reach and buy things I thought I’d never have. Sound’s good doesn’t it. But it really isn’t. The problem is that when you start to elevate your position in life, you find that your standards change and so do your interests. Suddenly, a man taking me to lunch at KFC just doesn’t seem as appealing.
So this brings me to the problem that I’m having currently. I find that its easy to meet men and easy to find sex but hard to find substance. To think that I live in one of the world’s major cities, with the best theatres, museums, galleries, restaurants etc but all I can ever seem to find are the guys that want to come over and fuck then enjoy a pizza. Am I asking for to much by wanting a better quality of life? My grandmother used to say that people always pay the price that they see on the shelf…I really need to find a better store!XOXO ~ City Boy